It's here... and it makes me sad. Memorial Day is a huge holiday to me- It marks the opening of pools and the season of swimsuits and sunscreen. I had big plans this year and I was on track to wearing a bikini this summer. It's not all about the bikini- but it was more about feeling good about myself and not having such negative thoughts running through my head ALL day concerning my weight.
I've fallen off track recently, and now I have to pay the consequences. We go away for Memorial Day weekend every year to Smith Mountain Lake and enjoy jet-skiing, wakeboarding, boating, and being by the water all day. It sucks that this year will be just like years past. I can see myself now- hopping out of the lake and darting to my cover-up. I'll be reading a magazine and holding it over my stomach in the right position to make sure my rolls don't show. I won't want to jump onto the rafts in the water- because who wants to see a beached whale try to make that maneuver? I won't be my silly self and dance on the dock with my kids in the fear that I jiggle to much.
Actually- this year I will do all of those things. Will I love my body? No. Will I feel comfortable? No. Will I have negative thoughts running through my head and beat myself up all the time? Yes. But this year I have something that I haven't had before. I have hope. I know that I can look good again and that it is possible. And I know what I have to do. So bring on the music and watch out. I can't wait to be crazy with my kids and make the biggest cannon ball splashes you've ever seen. Because next year I won't have that big of a splash. Scratch that... not next year- As long as I return from my hiatus (I won't be blogging for the next few days) and hit up LA Boxing hardcore and eat right, there's always August, right? There's no need to wait for next year "to be my skinny year." Now on my bucket list- Bikini- Labor Day 2010 at the lake!
And for all of you that take the time to follow my journey, I can't tell you how much I appreciate you. You believe in me even when I don't. You pick me up when I'm down and I am so grateful to you. When I was at Fitbloggin', we were given free t-shirts from an up and coming company called Thriv. I freaked out when I first saw the shirts because they were tiny. I'm talkin' real tiny. I thought for sure I'd hate wearing it because it would show everything. I was totally wrong. It's the only form-fitting shirt I own that I wear because it doesn't show my belly button indentation or my love handles. It's super soft and it has all that stuff people want in a shirt- It has patented technology that transforms bamboo and cotton to deliver 5 benefits: wicking, comfort, SPF, anti-odor, and breathability. This awesome company is going to send a shirt of your choice to one of my lucky readers! Check out their site www.thrivnp.com, and leave a comment with the size and color of shirt you want if you win. You can choose from either a men's or ladies’ performance crew shirt.
Since I'm new at this, I will put the names of the commenters from this website and iammodern.com in a hat and choose a winner!!! Thriv will then send a shirt directly to the winner! Being that I average one comment, I'd say your odds are pretty good. I'll pick a winner next Wednesday!
Love you all and Have a GREAT Memorial Day!