Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Deja Vu

A deal is a deal, right?  So here's the deal- 90 days from tomorrow I will post before and afters. 

Last week I was on it.  I felt A-MAZ-ING!!!  And then I had a sick child, missed a workout, my hubby was a travelin' man, and things spiraled out of control.  All that hard work down the drain. 

It's almost like when you start seeing results and feeling better, you justify a "free" day.  You tell yourself you deserve it.  And then a free day turns into a free weekend which turns into a free week which turns into a 5 pound weight gain and one unhappy woman...

Today, I was pheneing for bad food.  It was comical- I paid hard earned money for a personal trainer, and then went to Wally World and proceeded to binge on raw cookie dough.  Does it count that I added a Diet Coke and a Weight Watchers magazine at checkout?  Horrible.  All that sweat and moo-lah out the window with an afternoon of emotional eating.

At an afterschool parkdate, my bestie looked at me and said, "I showed my sister your blog when you did LA Boxing.  Girl, you did it.  You can do it again."

Darn right.  I did do it.  I need to get out of the mindset that I have so far to go that it's impossible.  Ya know, Yeah, I dropped a few pounds, but so what- I'll never get back to where I look decent.  Today, I'm declaring- I'm not too far gone.

Sure- I had 15 more pounds to lose in these pictures, but I did this in three months.  Three months.  Enough time before swimsuit season.:) 

I can do this.  90 days.  A deal is a deal- Take 2.

And just in case ya missed the first run: 

A deal is a deal...

Wow. All I can say is Wow. Over the past three months, I have grown so much as a person. I have learned so much about myself and for the first time in a long time, I have started to believe in myself again.

Three months ago, I was disgusted with how I looked. Every moment of every day, I would think about my weight and it had gotten to the point where it was really holding me back in life. I had completely let myself go and had turned into a frumpy mom.

Things happen for reasons. I honestly believe that. A random stalkerish e-mail from a guy connected with LA Boxing changed my life. After following my heart and talking to the creepy guy that my mom was convinced was going to murder me, I was hooked up with a free gym membership and all the tools to begin a transformation. Little did I know that this experience would transform me inside and out.

Here is how I looked a little over ninety days ago. You can see it in my eyes how embarassed I was about what I had let myself become. I look miserable... and like I just smelled a fart... And to think I got ready for this! Hair and make-up- check.

Fast forward to this past week. Eventhough I still have 15-20 pounds to go, I followed through with my end of the deal and had progress pictures taken. I am Modern hooked me up with a fabulous stylist, Linda Huynh, and an amazing photographer, Val Cavalheri. I had so much fun- and they were able to put me at ease and make me feel gorgeous for the day!

I was a little worried when the shoot started... I know they were going for edgey and sexy photos, and Val kept calling the shots "cute." Ha! I don't have a sexy bone in my body... but you sure can tell how far I've come!

We left they gym and headed back to Val's studio, and I started to come out of my shell a little.:) I still have a ways to go, but I'm proud of what I have done in three months! These aren't edited... except for fixing my boob. I'd love to say it was popping out of the top, but it was sagging out of the bottom, so she fixed it for me.;)

I am officially down twenty pounds and I'm officially addicted to working out. Eating clean is still an every day struggle for me, but this week I plan on changing my nutrition up. Thank you to all of my friends and family who have loved me at every weight and believed in me all along. You are my biggest cheerleaders, and I love you all. Thanks so much to my hubby, my in-laws, and my parents. Without your support and help with the kids, this would not have been possible. Chris and Addie, I wouldn't change my belly for anything in the world. The two of you are my greatest gifts and worth every roll, every stretch mark, and every pound. Thank you so much to the owner of Ashburn's LA Boxing, Debra, the marketing team at LA Boxing and Big Method, and to the staff at I Am Modern for rooting for me and giving me such an incredible opportunity. And most of all, thank you to the instructors and staff at LA Boxing. You kick my butt and have made me fall in love with boxing and kickboxing. What was once so far out of my comfort zone has become a hobby and something I can't live without. And lastly, thank you with all of my heart to my trainer, Justin. You have become my friend and someone I can count on. Thanks for pushing, motivating, and inspiring me.

You would think that I just won an Oscar. Well, actually, it feels like I did. I no longer have to put on a fake smile like I am happy with myself. There's no more need to act- because for the first time in a long time, I am truly happy.

The journey doesn't end here. I still have weight to lose, and at some point, I'd love to be able to actually wear that bikini in public:)...

Refuse to be mediocre. Be something exceptional.

1 comment:

  1. you CAN DO IT!! I just fell off the wagon for 2 weeks due to everyone in my house being sick, and while I miserable and wasn't able to work out, I was emotionally eating everything and anything I could get my hands on!

    Back on the wagon today...those pictures are fantastic and you'll get back there! :)